Suffocated capillaries!..

phoooooooooooooooooeeeeeeeewwwwwwwww!!

Finally its over....

Well, just getting back from the department seminar, and surving the 'Blood Rush' in my auricle, ventricle! They are still functional...( i mean their pumping) but will cool down gradually.

So, whats all this 'fret' about?

Well, we have department seminars every wednessday. It's fun when you are sitting among the audiance and not facing the crowd or 'facing the crowd' while giving a talk about your study. However our department came up with this new policy this semester of every speaker being introduced by a graduate student, and keeping up with the pace and successful execution of the seminar. The objective behind this is to train us (future scientists) in organising 'Seminar's or Pannel Discussions' in future.

Well, I guess these introduction lecture and asking the crowd which includes undergrad, grad, satff, faculty to stop yapping and concentrating on the speaker, does a pretty well job in initiating the above objective!!! I had never done this before. And I knew that it would be different from the talks I have given in the past. And obviously I was aware that facing a crowd with ALL THEIR foucs on YOU till the speaker starts talking won't be very casual. I was scared. But I had to experience IT and get done with it, once and for all. So I just got done with introducing and managing this week's seminar.

And guess who was I introducing ? Well, none other than MY ADVISOR!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaa....

I decided to introduce him as I really like him, and talking about somebody whom I idealize would be easier than somebody new. Less, did I know, how challenging it is to introduce a BIG fish, by myself being a TINY, MINISCULE creature, to a crowd of BIG FISHES!!

As 4pm approached the only system that worked in my body was my heart. I could hear the pumping of my auricles and ventricles and sending messages to my brain "COOL DOWN" COOL DOWN! IT'S GOING TO BE FINE..

Anyway people started pouring in. I was at the main dias. And I could hear the silent question screaming everybodies mind - Oh, WHO is she? (For those who don't know me!) Is she introducing Doug? Wao, tanu good luck ! (for those who know me)..For prof. whose classes I have taken I could hear " Anhaaan...can she speak in public ?"! So basically it IS NOT AT ALL a exciting feeling to have attention from each and everybody in the room on you, specially in BRIGHT LIGHT! Offcourse the lights are on, as you are introducing...and everybody is listening to what you are saying...or preparing the stage for the show! Talking on a prepared stage is different. I have done that many times. I mean giving talks is more exciting and different. I enjoy giving talk on my study. But today's experience was way different!

I did the MC's for last year's Mr. and Ms. International (reason was same..being on stage and managing a show) BUT that was different! I was facing a dark crowd!! And it was related to cultural activites not academics!!

Today it was entirely different. Specially as the room was getting filled up with a gradual increase of HUMMMING in the room. Everybody were on their seats except me! I was nervous. Very, nervous!. Each and every pair of eye was watching me, had questions about me. I mean you have to bring everybody to silence, make them listen to you...and start the show! After some couple of deep breaths and feeling the pumping in my heart I finally said "OK, THANKYOU EVERYBODY - CAN I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE"..after that I don't remember what I said... I had Doug's resume with me, so said something from there...and till I got back to my senses I realised I was at the end of his resume :) and his achievements...

I could see the end of my speach...and letting Doug, take over!
Phewwwwwwwwww....finally it was over.....As I sat through the entire seminar (since it was very relevant to my work) I could feel the vibrations in my head, brain, heart, gradually slowing down...its still slowing down..I decided then and there...will have to blog this!! So I did !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...couple of more deep breathing will chill me off further...but am GLAD that I DID IT, and its finally over. Pheooooooooooooooooooooooooo !!! :D