Scart

Don't Wait for the Night to Dawn
Don't wait for the morning to shine
Don't wait for the moon to rise
Don't wait for the snow to wipe
It's just another day
Darling,
For You and I
Let's get Chicaada's
for the winter and rain to come,
Let's find the tree hole
for the nuts to hide,
Such was the story
Of the Squirell - Scart's
Every day life..

bye bye

To the Pivett Drive...
To the Dudley's
To the bondage
here I come
the self named
Lord of Dark Art
Voldremot, or
Tom Riddle
Different names for the same
Neither Shall Live
While the Other Survives
For the battle
of Faith and Lies
for the Battle of
Objective
and Defy....

Here I come
To fight my destiny
To live or to Die
As I fear Not
for Either..
Let Life
Choose on who
Eventually shall Smile...

"Happy Birthday Harry and JK Rowling"
The greatest Wizard and Muggle of their time

Dream vs Reality...

Dream house, was actually, just a dream house. I did not get it. Somehow going back to my convictions, dreams should be realistic. Well, then they are not dreams :) ?

Although its a fact that the dreams and reality are not really connected, there is no harm in dreaming. Philosophers, suggest that dreams are kinda, other name of 'Hope'. I guess they are.. but as for this house goes, am glad I saw it.

It kind of makes my focus, path, more clear and objective, specially on seeing what it would be like when its for real. I'll be retaining this memory with care every bit of it, so that when it comes to painting the real picture, I exactly know how much and which color to put where... I won't be consuming a lot of my heart or brain space also over it.. as it has been there even before I saw the glimpse.. whatever be the reason for not getting this time.. I know it's only a matter of time that I will be painting it myself. The Lord, (I mean Landlord) was very nice and diplomatic. He did not fail to mention that he was very impressed with me and wanted to really work out something in my favor, :) (i really believe him) but they did not get another private contract for it. However he did suggest, its only a school year contract do apply again, and we will try to work something out!

I just burst out in laughter, because I could not understand how and what would change in 9 months.. I just felt sorry for him for trying to be over polished. This is a Mormon Land, land of business, Mother land of the Money Makers (Business men)...they do not compromise on price. Also they have an untold faith towards fellow LDS, kinda similar to our caste system, and they trust there own breed more than outsider's. But anyway.. I could only smile at his comment :) but my job was done.. I got to see what I had to see....

I just need to gather the proper colors and brush, my tool box to paint on a new, old or half done Canvas. What if the Canvas is already painted with totally different colors? Well its only a matter of time - till I re-paint all of it in the color I want..or I have seen it. It will just be a little bit more of work than on a new canvas...but I am sure I will be able to make any place (even the dingy dwelling of the Pivett drive), to ' 31 Grimold Place' - where I met Sirius Black, my first home.... with this new 'eldar wand' that I found ... :-)

the epilogue to this lies here....

Ayn Rand vs JK Rowling....

After having read 'Fountain Head' and "Harry Potter" around the same time, I can't help not writing this blog drawing the parallels and differences between them. Two women, Totally opposite, One Advocating -pure Selfishness and Objectivism while the other, ruled the whole world made a miraculous wave by advertising and selling "pure Selflessness and Love". Both showed loved but one with while other without Objectivisim. Who is more famous - Rowling or Ryann?

Well the answer is obvious. Ever since I started writing I realised how much one's own experience goes into such creative writing. It's hard to believe that Henry Rowark, Dominique, Harry, Ron, did not have the shades of their creator. In real life I have come across a real Rowark too - Bill Watterson. A genius in the toon, world. Gave us something so beautiful, marvelous as "Calvin and Hobbs" and did not sell its copy right to anybody. Sometime in the past I was trying to get in touch with him and realized that he chooses to live a private life. I guess all famous people do, and

What would I do, if he were to choose between the two?

Oxymoron

Here you will find the top 45 oxymorons. An oxymoron is a combination of two words that are completely opposite in meaning. You've probably heard many of these before but didn't realize that they fall within this category. Read to the end.

45. Act naturally
44. Found missing
43. Resident alien
42. Advanced BASIC
41. Genuine imitation
40. Airline Food
39. Good grief
38. Same difference
37. Almost exactly
36. Government organization
37. Almost exactly
36. Government organization
35. Sanitary landfill
34. Alone together
33. Legally drunk
32. Silent scream
31. Living dead
30. Small crowd
29. Business ethics
28. Soft rock
27. Butt head
26. Military intelligence
25. Software documentation
24. New classic
23. Sweet sorrow
22. Child Proof
21. "Now, then "
20. Synthetic natural gas
19. Passive aggression
18. Taped live
17. Clearly misunderstood
16. Peace force
15. Extinct life
14. Temporary tax increase
13. Computer jock
12. Plastic glasses
11. Terribly pleased
10. Computer security
9. Political science
8. Tight slacks
7. Definite maybe
6. Pretty ugly
5. Twelve-ounce pound cake
4. Diet ice cream
3. Working vacation
2. Exact estimate

And the number 1 oxymoron is.
1. Microsoft Vista works?

1 vs 2

he he.. only idiots... think there is no difference in the number's assigned to you in different things.. no 1 is One and 2 is two :) mathematics and philosophy of all are one, hell can never match....

took so much time to understand... so...

first kiss, first love, first rain, first book, first cigarette, first drink, first night out, first date, first wife, first car, first pay, first roommate, first paper, first job, first flight,...... jeezzz still glow bright in my head... first will always be THE first... always remembered...

can 2 or 2nd ever lead 1, in anything?

he he...what an idiot I have been all my life...

HiM

You are the most beautiful thing
That Happened to me
The soul that unleashed me
The smile that gave freedom
The eyes that had answers
The glitter that always glowed
The leaf, that never browned
The light that never left
The pain, that rejoiced everything else
The source, where the ends met,
The beauty that sun and moon, failed to define
The music that a river sang...
You are the most beautiful thing
That Happened to me,

My friend, My soul, My child, My life
My ever beloved Bakwaas self
That dissolved - 'HiM' and 'I'
My new 'Toshiba Satellite'
That helped me view all the above
In New Light ....

Love at first sight

.... Did not expect that it would happen to me and so soon...

Yes, it was like something coming out from a dream ... I did not believe it when I saw it....but it did happen... reality can ever be so close to a dream or a wish is at times hard to believe..

each and everything, each and every corner was just how I wished for.. or had imagined.. thw word perfect also seems small.. or imperfect infront of it..

Today's day just makes me believe in my dreams and wishes.. and taught me again.. until the right time and moment comes destined path shall never cross... today was one such perfect day ... or moment when one such path crossed..

"I found just the right place for me JUST perfect.. its almost like too good to be true"

my call for finding a place to live will be answered so soon... before I left home I told my children to take me to the place they would want to live for next year or our left over time in Logan, US. Although they have their own tantrums whenever I have given them a choice to choose something they would want to do.. I have enjoyed the results or after effects...

It was just amazing, and I do not understand how and why all of a sudden over night I had mind telling me that my romantic journey with my current house is over.. its time ...to move on.. Until today morning, I did not want to leave the place and was looking for roommates... BUT today morning it didn't feel the same... I have enjoyed my stay in this house... it has been very peaceful, eventful, beautiful... both in terms of its.. geography and the people i lived with.. i came across.... everything...

I don't know yet.. who my roommate would be in this place.. but I just know it would be somebody.. who is meant to be with me.. or live with me.. I JUST Know it.. sometimes the UNKNOWN, the UNCERTAIN does not scare you anymore.. the fear of ifs, and buts just disappear... I have never been so sure of the unsure and yet to blissfully happy and peaceful.. well I take it back, there has been JUST one more such memory I have... of blissfully happy and peaceful of the unknown and unsure...

in the end, Love at first sight is for sure.. TRUE... it happens to me every time I have to move :-) and I don't move till it happens....

I am Looking for....

1. I like to live with people, have fun enjoy their company but at the same time.. I enjoy my solidarity, hence I need my own space..
2. Having lived in a hostel for more than 15years, with immobile beds and desks my soul suffocates in an apartment complex with similar looking houses and rooms miles after miles... Hence I need identity...
3. Being the creative person I am I need flexibility to be able to vent out my creativity, hence need enough room space and least objects to keep moving stuff here and there, when I get bored...
4. I rarely cook, so I definitely need a microwave, and oven to survive or just somebody interested in cooking...
5. I am very particular about cleanliness hence I expect cleanliness in the living room and kitchen area...and off course the restroom..
   

So here are my requirements, and I find them very simple and straight forward..atleast thats what I thought, still think and feel...Now, what am I actually looking for?

Well..just 'ROOMMATES' in an Unfurnished, house where I lived for last 2 years, after my X-roommates moved out! As I write I gather that it resembles an amazing parallel of my desirable 'LIFEMATE'.. too. I think I can forward the same list to my parents... who have been after me to get hooked...

Man, having looking for a roommate for the coming school year for over 3 months, without any success made me realize the amazing parallel between the two! Are my expectations too much, or is it just Logan, where its is next to impossible to find SINGLE GRADUATE students!! I guess if you are bi-curious choice of LIFEMATE becomes relatively easier than ROOMATE!! aaahhh!!!

Yah, you can't live with a guy here in Logan, single!! U have to be married or just lie that he is your BF!! Sometimes they don't even give houses to unmarried people here..IT SUCKS!! THE LOGAN MORMONISH culture...this is the only TIME I HATE this community..and my frustration is at peak...

My job or field, adds to that complexity further..having being in field for almost 7 months.. I kind a don't know anybody any more.. my old so called friends have either left (graduated) or moved on.. I mean paired up... so obviously they are not available as roommates !! So what do I do???

In an unknown place, with nobody left whom I knew, I can just think of starting fresh...with new roommates, new people.. BUT here comes the final PUNCH... apparently I have to sign join contracts or group contracts..its like asking me to be responsible for another unknown person, stranger for paying the bills, rent, etc etc... FEELS like the arranged marriage thing back at home...!!! JEEEZZZ it keeps following me everywhere...

Ok, I prepare myself for that.. Ok, I don't care.. will do that as long I can have my own private room and bath, I will adjust and compromise and accommodate.. BUT THEN... comes the final red cross..

"oh, we are group of 2 - 3 girls and we just want to live with ourselves... we do not want to live with a stranger"

... and there it goes... I AM LEFT with no other choice... or option... if and only if there were JUST few more SINGLE people !!! The graduate-undergraduate requirement has also been lifted...long time back.. up.. anybody, somebody... Just SINGLE...and not living with their BF's yet!

So as I swirl, juggle, and swim in the peak of my frustration, disappointment, uncertainty of finding a roommate I concluded a LIFEMATE = PRIVATE BEDROOM, whenever I find one and CONTRACT = MARRIAGE!!

... after all this bakwaas, I really wish and hope that I find a roommate as I DO NOT want to move by myself in a single cottage or studio apartment.. GOD, if you are hearing me then you better send some prospective applicants, else LORD SAVE THE WORLD, and save my PRIVATE BEDROOM!!!

PS- I really hope and wish that something comes up.. my prayer to the world...

No More Owls!

Finished the last book of the Harry Potter Series "The Deathly Hallow" today @1:30pm... The ending of the book was marvelous, beautiful more than I had expected. It all started with me picking it up from the Bookstore, rt at 12:00 pm, 21st midnight..as if waiting for the future of harry or destiny to unfold, with all questions, and uncertainties and fear concerning if he, his friends , his faith will eventually see the light of truth or will it be darkness.. I never believed the later. Over the years as I read all the potter books somehow somewhere a part of my soul got spit and associated with the book (he he..am talking like a wizzard, I think none of as we ever talk like a muggle anymore) and with 'Harry'..there were too many things in his life that one could relate to, atleast for me... inspite of being completely aware that there exists no connection between his magic and my muggle world! But still it was nice to see and feel that in dreams in fantasy's it could be possible...

So, I picked up the book, from the store at 12 and was home by 1:00AM... straight I dugged into my bed..slept of at 4.00 am then next morning started it again from post noon...! What a great weekend...solely and solely dedicated to Harry Potter.. loved it... :) Mom called but I just told her to wait till I finish reading this book..now that am done, and I know what happens in the end, and am happy with it, am all excited about it..

But my excitement soon made me realize this was it. THIS WAS THE END OF Harry...it kind of left me with a sensation of how one feels when you all of a sudden loose something very dear to you, close to you, when you know you would never hear back from them ever again. You would never know what's happening to them... It's like 7 years with somebody all of a sudden came to an end... like somebody died.. or something that will never grow again, that will never have new leaves, it just has to freeze..a sense of isolation, separation, a divorce...from a dream, a rythym...

As I rejoiced with the enjoyment and excitement of what happened post the Half Blood Prince, I felt saddened by the fact, that there won't be any more Hogsworth express, no more owls, no more Quidditch, no more ,no more of welcome meal... :((. Having lived in boarding for so many years, I think had just quite a few common memories with harry, with his return in each book or movie. All of a sudden I am reminded of the same Lull, that I used to feel or still feel remembering the moments of having had to say good bye to friends or people or place I grew up. A mixed feeling, of coming to know of the fate of YKW and harry but at the same time a sadness of realizing the end as well, a perfect cocktail. It's like nothing to look forward to all of a sudden... I have never been so effects by a series..ever in my life...

Although there won't be any new stories about Potter, I am sure I will most efficiently retain all my memories from the magic world (charms, enchantment, spell, potions, Prof. Magongle, Moaning Murlet etc etc..) to amuse my children and grand children... I can't wait to read the books again with them.. and apparate to Hogswort to have a peep in the Pensive through their 'Memory Channels' ....

... to the future, here I come again
Hail Harry, Hail JK Rowling

"I think it will be hard to just be a muggle again :-) "

Goodbye to the Wizard World...

***************************

Rowling predicts that some of Harry's fans will dislike "Deathly Hallows." But she is proud of it. "The final book is what it was always supposed to be, and so I feel very at peace with that fact," she says.

As for the future, she says she has no plans.

"I can never write anything as popular again," she said. "Lightning does not strike in the same place twice.

"I'll do exactly what I did with Harry — I'll write what I really want to write, and if it's something similar, that's OK, and if it's something very different, that's OK.

"I just really want to fall in love with an idea again, and go with that." ********************************

................a reality, a conviction, a dream, a truth, a passion that am sure many people can and will be able to relate to I guess. I found an amazing harmony, strength and rhyme in her above statements. I always wondered.. if the release of the books by JKR in the years they did and their direct correlation with my life were they just coincidental or there lies an unknown reason that I too will figure out as my journey with my dream that dawned on me in realized"


The coincidence's

"....mixed emotions at leaving behind the character she conjured up during a train journey across England in 1990..."

"After producing a book a year between 1997 and 2000, Rowling took a break. There was a three-year gap between the fourth book, "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire," and "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix," published in 2003..."

Till the release of the last book Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows, on 21st July 2007, followed by the last movie release in 2009.

Am yet to know what the last year(s) behold for me, though!

I Wish

I wished
That I'ld be called
An Idiot again,
I wished I 'ld hear
"you wish" again
I wished I would
hear the smile again
I wished I would fight
over the Chocolate Banana Ice-cream again,
Wish I could listen to the boring
rantings Again,
Wish I could tell stories of the
Gorillas in mist, Simba and Potter again,
Wish I could fly back with the Kingfisher again,
Wish I could find the lost 'Flow' again,
Wish I was there when the
the Grey cloud,
And the dark Rain,
Came,
Wish I was awake
When the last night came...
Wish "Good Night Buddy"
Was not all that I could gather to say,
As the Funeral to freedom,
Was put to Flame!

C and H by Till Batterson

C: Hobbs, Hobbs I gave Suzie the hate mail with the dead rose :)...
H: Really :) what did she say??
C: I don't know.. I find it fishy... she has been extremely nice to me since then, she did not throw the card at me nor the rose, nor did she complain about either ...
H: Really, may be she likes it..
C: Ya, :( man girls are wiered..

1 week later..

C: Hobbs hobbs, Suzie gave a reply... a big gift.. she gave me this big packet and a real rose.. i think she is in love with me..
H: Really...Waooo.. lets see lets see what in it.. may be cake
C: :) happy ....

They tear open the packet... Chirh chir.. pluurrr...

C:YYYUUUUUUUUUUUUUUKKK...EEEKKKSS...BUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRPPPPP...BAAAAAAAAAAAARRRFFFFFFFFFF...

MOM: Calvin... will u stop making such disgusting noises again...or no dessert for tonigth..JEEZZZ why does ur room stink..what have u done...YUCCCKK Calvin. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS...now u have started collecting dead old.. rotting earthworms and bringing them to your room!!! DISGUSTING...thats it....

"no dessert no TV, no evening out, no pizza for you FOR A WEEEK... "

C : :( mom, listen :( mom..I did not bring it.. Suzie gave it to me..

Mom : stop lying calvin. She was here the other day when i was watching TV. She said you two have been nice with each other for sometime. she showed me the card you gave her for 'Freindship day' card..NO COOKIES also for you now for a week for passing on your dirty grubs to your friends

H: He he.. man, u were wrong I think ...girls are not just smart......infact smarter... :)) :-)

****I hope Bill Watterson doesn't commit sucide after seeing such horrible murder of his creation by Me, Till Batterson, :) ******

12th July

Just a usual day
With Work and Play,
But in presence of an old day,
Just remembered..
Not missed
A past moment..
With an Old fellow
In peace....
Trying not to smile,
Or be happy either,
As what follows after
Is not something I treasure...
So just letting the thought go,
Let it rest
Sleep and live in peace,
Among dead..
Just remembering
The moment of its death,
For all the calmness
In nothingness
That Existed
Ever Since it left...

" feels so good in being able to let these words escape and see freedom .. where nobody hears not, none see's not, effect none, judges none and judged by none..Man, why, didn't I do this earlier? Rather why was I outside either?.."

Finally

ya... finally here I go
Within..
A journey..
yet to begin
The Freedom
again to see
Feel the breath within
a deep Inhale
With delayed Exhale
a Silence
Full of Peace
the dive
the climb
feeling every cell breathing
the long awaited step
past the 'In Search'
Finally Begins

Tick Tock....

Few more hours...
And few seconds...
For the clash of 'Titan's'
awaiting in the Hogswort Express
where the Magic unfolds
Just few hours more..
till OOTP is insight
till I' of tanu meet's
the I' of harry
till the awaited excitement,
Strikes
Knowing that
It Would Rock,
No matter
How or Where, and
When It came..
Now,
Starts the wait for
HaRRy in
TDH...
the last Magic
to strike on the
Midnight of 21st night...

"i just feel luck to be born in the time when the HP series was written, not knowing the end.. or the author's mind... seems like a journey with the birth of harry to hogsworth till he dies or survives (??)... I am sure it would never feel the same how many times I read ..these books ever again..in future. . I think this is the "mOsT uNiQuE jOuRnEy" I have had with any book till date..or may will ever have..."

On a tangential note... the expected C and H strip as a followup to the one posted on photo-blog... I can't stop laughing at the appropriateness of these strips... !!

APPARATING

Sorry readers,

I'm apparating to Hogswort, will be back after the fight with "You Know Who (YKW)" is over. My last term with harry in just 18 days.....

but before that...I need to work on the 'RELASHIO' , 'STUPYFY' and the 'IMPERIUS CURSE'...

my predictions:

Dumbledore, will come back to help harry fight YKW, :)
Harry, is himself the last Holcrux, :(
Navel Longbottom will for sure die..
Snape will help Harry too (very unlikely but hoping!!)
Malfoy SHOULD die :)

...last and the worst.........HARRY WILL DIE too :((((( he has to..to become the hero or remembered... (but i wish that he doesn't!)

my 2nd favorite character - DOBBY :)

"Harry a figment of Rowling's imagination yet so close and real for so many MUGGLE'S"