Vultures

I dreamt of vultures today. I don't know what it meant, but I did not wake up happy, as I usually Do. It was sad. May be it's got something to do with last nights conversation. I am not sure though. But whatever it IS/WAS both left a disappointing and weird feeling. And I want to get rid of it. So I have to take it out on you !!

Few notes to myself -

1. I am happy the way I am. I do not need to change to get something, and more importantly I don't want to change.
2. A date is not a friend!
3. Keep safe distance.
4. I am incapable of playing games.
5. I do not want to be with someone who thinks I have ran out of options and that he has many options.
6. DELETED
7. I do not want a "DELETED" for myself.
8. I want to be with a man who is emotional, can confront his emotions and take a stand.
9. I have got over a major blockage about going out with someone. I don't care about IT anymore. !!!
10. I do not think linearly anymore. Like>>Friends>>Love>>Romance>>Marriage>>Sex. Either of this can happen irrespective of the past or the future.
11. Emotional Me OUT, Practical Me, IN.
12. Dating for most is just fun. REMEMBER...It's a time filler, a weekend hang out partner, after you have ran out of your hobbies and what you want to do with yourself.
13. Life can be lonely but I am not scared of it anymore, anyway. I know how to stay happy.
14. Do not read too much into things, unless spelt out in words with voice!!
15. If I feel something I feel, if the feeling is reciprocated, good, NICE. If not, move on.
16. It does not need a PhD to FEEL for someone or figure out if you feel anything for someone or not! What is important is how long that feeling stays, or how often it returns.
17. Never lead in a relationship..never spend time or money on guy, unless asked for.

Thoughts : But then I do not like men who think only Men need to lead. I like to take the lead when I like something. But men are not used to it. They like to be the leader. So either I let the other person lead and let him be the man or the winner, or end up as a loner :( ! I have only two options.

Problem : Will I like a man like that? Will I be able to love him? I don't think so !!!!!

Conclusion : I might just end up staying with my dog, cats, rats.. and frogs, collected over time !!!!! Can this be true?? NO, I don't think so, and I don't believe it to be. There is always an exception to all social norms...And this exception will be MINE.. I know it.. Patience