Last but not the least...

Yeah, finally made some progress in the 'Last' but not the least.

I don't know why I was just not able to get to it. May be am bored or may be am just not interested. As I don't know what's next!

I hate this uncertain phase. Last time I witnessed this uncertainty, I just completed my Master's and I was like OK, what next? I knew I wanted to do a PhD but then I also knew I did not want to do it on 'Habitat Ecology'. I wanted to do something different, something more convincing for myself, something I am more passionate about. Something that I feel I am in absolute love with.

Finally, in one weekly seminar at WII, it happened. Love at first sight, rather thought. I had already started working on the 'Hog Deer Survey Project' and I was traveling all over the Indian Terai, from Punjab to Arunachal Pradesh, witnessing the change in grasslands and hog deer population. I wanted to evaluate the change within the Indian Terai, under a single window. And how does the view from the window change with time? What does it mean for the surviving species? What does it mean for the future?

As these thoughts rambled in my brain, I ran into Advait's presentation on his PhD Pre-project and I knew what I wanted to do, followed by trip to Cambridge and the discussion with Stuart Pimm.

Yes, that was IT. And I fell in love with a question, that has driven me all these years.

Today, I have the answers to these questions and possibly more questions. But am still not it love with any of those questions. I mean I like them and they are interesting, but something is missing.

I am waiting for an idea, a question, a thought to ignite the same fire, for the following journey.

For now, I know what I am looking for and what I want, but the passion is lacking. I know am there, but still not there. Hence wait and watch. And while I do that, I am moving on with last but not the least.

And with every step and every day, I am learning more and more !

Let the learning continue, guiding me to the right path to the right answers.

Mean while, a miracle happened few days back, and I cannot deny the existence of HE WHO MUST BE NAMED ! I Call him GOD, LOVE, LIFE and FAITH. And I love it when he shows his existence through such incidents.

THANK YOU SO MUCH, I OWE YOU A BIG ONE FOR THIS MIRACLE.