ENOUGH OF ALL THIS...

Yah, I have been in this stale state of mind for more than I can handle or I am used to handling. I think the seriousness is making me mad at myself... and I am hating myself... So, I have decided to change a few things about me -

Objective 1. Stop hating the people who hurt me...FORGET IT...they did not do it consciously.
Action to achieve 1 >> remember all the good, nice, happy and fun times spent with them however tiny it IS

Objective 2. Get rid of laziness
Action 2>>>>Get to my activity schedule swim/bike/gym

Objective 3. Try accommodating or compromising on 'MY SPACE' and I, and ME
Action 3 >>>>spend time with people..friends, hang outs, talk and smile at everyone BE genuinely interested in them...CULTIVATE that interest back...

Objective 4. Get back to my Bindass self
Action 4 >> do not take life or anything or anybody very seriously :) go out on dates, meet people, interact, have a good time, enjoy then get back to work :) everybody is susceptible to mistakes so are you, so is everybody - forgive, forget!

Objective 5. Feel again with passion genuineness...
Action 5 >>> stop being pretentious, if sad be sad, wallow in sadness, BUT make efforts to get over it..SWIM :) AVOID unhappy people... :) it bothers you ...DO NOT LET IT BOTHER YOU else..DO NOT SAY ANYTHING NO, for ONE day :) TELL yourself the 5 magical spells :)

I am .....
I have ....
I have .....
I am ....
I am.....

EXPECTO PATRONUMM, REPARIO , - watch harry potter every night, read calvin before going to bed :) KEEP Jared Diamond aside for a while.. tell the people around you ...what u feel and what you don't feel.. and let it go.. 'JYADA load nahi leene ka'