Humble Devil !

hmmmmm.... fingers drumming on the table, with the kinky look in my eye...almost half closed !!!!
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hmmm Ok, I have a hypothesis, actually two -

1. First - I think, this humble devil is someone I know or definitely who knows me.
2. Second - I think, its either HIM, THE i, TiGeR, the Buddha ..... (OR) the Logan tracker!!!

Reasons - talks too much to me, unnecessarily interested to find out about me

Outcome - if its the Logan 'tracker' then he is going to get it back really BAD!! Even the thought of it makes me hate him more!!! Earlier I used to tolerate him as a friend BUT after this intution, I think he is a 'psycho' !!!


2nd option - ITS REALLY HIM, i know its impossible to believe and expect it to him. But who says we can't have wild and craziest, idea. OK let me imagine, go wild _

Its HIM.
He realized he does feel for me eventually
But then I had deleted him from my life, orkut, chat, gmail, everything and everywhere
He changed his status to 'committed' then to 'marraige' to irritate me (as usual) nothing worked
Then I close my blog also forever
The last post he read was 'The Review' he has replies to it, or thoughts on it on his blog.
Then comes or pops up this 'Humble Devil' from no where !!
No tags, no common blogger, JUST out of the blue and keeps track
Then All of a sudden send the Tag I' where I clearly mention about the mutant :)
Then I see the 'status' change to 'married'
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Still emails and bugs !! and wants to chat
I say NO, NOT interested....

anyway so the bollywood story continues...

He is coming to US
He was planning to for his PhD
He knows am in US but will go back soon
So wants to check where am I with my going back...

He wants me to either get over him
OR tell ME that 'Humble Devil' is none but HiM............

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yupppppppppppp, thats what I thought and told myself last night while sleeping because I wanted to apply for the 'Banglaore' job. He is the first person I remembered as soon as I saw the opening. No matter, that the position is like a 'dream job' for me ! something I would love to do.. so I was very very excited about it. At the same time, I felt, may be someday I will run into HiM .......
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Then I saw the status change, on orkut, I did not feel bad at all...
BUT I think somehow the motivation level to apply for the ATREE job was little 0.01% subdued. I still WANT it, But it can wait TILL I earn some money. THATS there even now...

so ran a video from future in my head "I run into HiM with his 'wife' in the streets. It will be so nice. I will be with someone.. he will be with someone. Still we will see each other and say Hi ' and 'Bye "

DID NOT FEEL ANYTHING AGAIN ...
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THAT's when I RAN the elaborated 2nd option model and IT WORKED :) I was like KEWL...

He comes to US
I go back to India :)
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This is like Tom and Jerry :) but it worked... and i wrote a brilliant 'Statement of Goals'

so who ever you are Mr. DEVIL, I used to completely to seek my dream job :)
If you are HiM, then tell me
Else don't even bother to, as AM just not interested !!!

NB- serious note , i think deep down I know its not HiM, and it possibly is the TRACKER !! BUT WHO CARES..I WILL BELIEVE what I want to believe and feel happy about it :) let me do an experiment on myself and see If TRUE wish and affection can really bring something to real :). .....Yah after watching 'Kung Fu Panda' I WANT to believe in this crazy dream or wish of mine'

MAN I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE the devil , to HiM, but its dreamy, bollywoodish, hollywoodish to even think about it ! and kung fu panda inspired me to think this way :D :)))

On a real note - he is married, he is coming to US with his wife :) and am happy about it...atleast he will fall in love, he will know what it is, to feel for someone, to care for some.. BEAUTIFUL :)