My new Toy

ok I need to really thank god for sending me this new toy, called 'Didi'
Let me just give her that name. I really can't thank god for sending her my way. WHY?

well heck there are so many reason(s)

1. for having someone waiting for me for dinner
2. for having someone to smile at when I come home
3. for having someone to ask did you eat
4. for having someone to take along for a movie, or hike or drive
5. for having someone waiting for me while i finish cooking, or doing the dishes
6. for having someone 'yapping' all day
7. for having someone remind me if i have taken the keys
8. for having someone to ask 'how was your day'
9. for having someone to share a joke at anytime of the day
10. for having someone to tell how was her day
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I can go on and on...and I will never be short to say why I am thankful for today. Yes, life in US is not easy. Specially after your friends have moved out, or moved on in their lives. All these small things matter so much. I do not want to glorify my bitter, sad and painful experiences with my first roommate. But it did teach me a lot in life and opened a 'Pandora box' of experiences, and definitely has made me a 'Butterfly' from a 'Larvae' :)

It taught me to find happiness in myself, It taught me to appreciate small things in life, value people, value time..it just taught me so many things..it made me appreciate other culture and communities. It taught me 'Patience' and 'Accommodation'. It has made me a more practical person then an extreme 'emotional thug'. It has taught me to be straight forward yet not rude. It has taught me to be affectionate yet not taken for granted or taking anybody for granted. It has just taught ME SO much..I finally feel so confident of living with anyone. I think I can now deal with anyone. I learnt how roommates can become friends, or friends can become strangers with time, or you can come and leave as strangers as well. I learnt how, when and where to draw a line.

All the wisdom gathered from roommates I think, has made me realize the importance of having a company and more specifically the RIGHT COMPANY, as opposed to none or anyone!

I am very happy by myself inspite of the dips. But heck I know that with the right person it can and will be double the fun I already have. Can't thank my 'mallu' roommate for that.. inspite of such shaky start we ended up so well, as opposed to something starting all good, but ending in utter bitterness, like any typical bollywood movie.

Today with my New Toy, I really appreciate everything that I have learnt so far. I have actually learned to observe, participate, and enjoy as well without the fear of losing anything. It might sound philosophical but then so is life. Its better not trying to separate them. Just LIVE it. Everything is coming so handy :) and making perfect sense. I just cannot stop thanking life and the people who helped me reach here..

I am not scared of loneliness anymore or even accepting that yes, life has been lonely at times. I am not scared of my own emotions anymore. I know I can handle it, I know I will sail through it. I can confidently sail out of them just by myself anytime. If there is someone to help great, else am not going to wait at the shore waiting for the right boat either :)

It just feels peaceful, No extremes, just being there and enjoying the moments. In simple words 'Zyada Load Nahi Lene ka' neither too practical nor too emotional. Just enough to keep sailing and enjoy the sail as well :)

Jeezzzzz, I accept I really had LOTSSSSSSSSSS to learn in life and may be more to come soon, :) ...

PS - starting a new category 'hall of fames' dedicated to all the people who have taught me something in life. I always wanted to have a separate section about them and today is just the perfect day to start it as well.