Huh ?

Yah, a big question mark!
Am not sure if what happen today or did not happen today -

1. Is a sign, or
2. An answer to my prayers, or
3. Destiny, or
4. An answer to my inner conflict, or
5. An entirely random incident, or
6. Nothing!

I will have to wait for a whole year or my be more to get the context of 'goodness' in today's incident ! Am not sure if am happy, sad, disappointed, affected or unaffected, unless it is an answer to my prayers and others who are praying for me. Something tells me there IS something about today, else the puzzle would have been resolved. I do not understand, why am I always chosen to witness such incidents?

Someone was supposed to come and meet me during the Christmas break. This soul wanted to come earlier too but never turned up. And am not the one who pursues things if the other is not interested. So anyway I did not bother. His first attempt to meet was in August. Somehow we got re-connected again in Nov. And he choose to come over. I was like Ok, but somehow I felt something missing. There was something MISSING...in his wanting to meet or reasons to meet. And I had my own doubts. So anyway, he was supposed to come on the 26th and I was praying the LORD, aloud that PLEASE spare me from Meeting anyone who is NOT meant to be... and save my time. I do not want to meet anyone who lacks sincereity. I litterally prayed aloud.

Ma, was like... keep your negative vibes out. I was not really negative. But I was very clear that I DO NOT WANT TO WASTE MY TIME. So do not make it happen if its not meant to be. THAT's IT. And guess what, after saying Good night and see you tomorrow...he calls in 30mins and says...Hey, there is a slight problem..

Me : What happened?
He : My flight IS canceled because of snowstorm warnings!
Me : WHAT !! (in my mind I knew, the lord heard me)
He : Looks like we will have to postpone our meeting...
Me: Ya, looks like. Bad timing. But no worries... next time.
He : Ya, so let me know when you are around in CA
Me : (in silence) Ya, RIGHT ! You wish !! Are you Dumb?
. ................

Ma : SHOCKED to the core... she was speechless
Me : Shocked to the core...and surprised.. .. at my own ability to communicate with the universe

While all this happened I was talking to someone whole heartedly, with a an unknown element, to someone I recently met.. with the only conviction that I only have this day... to talk to him... who knows what in store for me tomorrow...!!!

Whatever it is God, please stand beside me. And guide me to my destiny... wherever it is...