The Beam Balance ....

"From being very emotional I became ultra-practicle, and now with trial and error I have found a middle path"


Though this conversation ended yesterday, it made me think and ponder, Have I really reached or found the middle path? Or I think I have, and what I am presuming as a middle path, when viewed from a distance still falls on either corner?

I am not so sure. But the truth about me is, I do not like to go with brain. Except for work, there is absolutely nothing in life, that I feel needs the advice from brain. I like to go by my heart and subconsiously, even today, I go by it. The only difference is, I always let my brain take a call and oversee, what the heart is upto.

So, going by the statement, I made yesterday, I think am still on the E-side rather than the P-side :). I mean who does not want to be on the stable foot all the time? But in reality that's never the case. Except for you and your work, everything around you is envoloped within a shade of grey. And we happen to just move through that grey zone towards our destiny. So being grey definately helps more than being black and white. But what mix of grey is the perfect combination is hard to judge and find. To me it's more like a dynamic ever evolving mix of both. And there is no perfect answer or measure of it. It's very situational and temporal.

So, when everything around you is so situational and temporal then why to take a stand and define the color of your choice. Just let it be. It primarily boils down to being the way you are. Do not force yourself to be either on E or P path, or even seek a balanced approach.

I mean technically, whats a balance?

A beam balance is a balancing unit used to weigh. And when the weights and the object nullify each other it reaches the balance and becomes static. Stable.

Means no movement anymore. the END. Finish. Done.

Now this contradicts with the basic essesnce of life or being alive. If there are no imbalances there's no scope for exchange of energy. It's dead or in other terms boring. On the other hand, a slight imbalance of weight will bring back the stable dead beam balance to move again, breath and be alive. So I think, the idea of trying to reach and find balance does not go hand in hand with the basic principle of life. It cannot. And some imbalance is necessary to keep the truck going. The only difference lies, in the lenght of the swings. A big swing (imagine a pendulum) would mean more work and time to reach A (the destination) than the small swing. Smaller swings would mean you taking smaller steps towards A, and at the same time bouncing a small step back, rather than a straight push back to the beginning. And I think this is a more rationale and enjoyable ride to the future.

So, in nutshell, just go with what you feel. Do not try to rationalise each and everything. It just takes out the fun out of it. It's important to have dreams, illusions, uncertainities, hopes, wishes, desire to keep dreaming and enjoying the ride till the end. And that cannot be achieved if you are a beam balance, :)

Do what makes you happy, Don't do what makes you unhappy.
Do Happy, Don't Unhappy

Having said that, what exactly is happiness? It's a feel good emotion felt by the brain, only, and not the heart. :)So, realize that. Heart is just an organ, which works solely under the direction of the brain. The separation of brain and heart, is in your mind. In reality, your heart also resides in your brain. You are unable to see it. Which means the over emphasis on heart is totally missunderstood.

And its more and only a journey for happiness, chaired by the skull :)
So being on the P or E path, is irrelevat as long as you are basking in happiness.In absence of H, P or E is irrelevant.

On that note, I must say, that my happiness from the crush has sub-dued a lot. It's more like fun to talk to, which isn't that bad either. But just a note for myself. The crush has reached a balance I guess :)
So, its static and stable. :)