Having a tough time in addressing and balancing a step toward certainty and uncertainty
a foot towards the destined PhD end is also a step towards uncertainty, unknown! A step towards not knowing what next, not knowing where will the salary come from next, what would I do next !!
a foot towards saying a Hi and Bye together.......
a foot in my haunted land of 'I miss you' & 'I don't miss you'....
a foot towards searching job and finishing up as well...
a foot towards disappointed job interviews and persistent application and search...
Phew....help me toughen up...and remain in focus... few more months... and all this uncertainty will be over..
Came back from Mical defense, am shit scared imagining myself in her shoes in few months. I have to get it done with next couple of months. I have to just forget the uncertainity post PhD and just finish it. If I get a job, great IF Not am sure there is something for me in thought by the universe. I will not have the luxory that I have today with my parents around. Nothing like having your family and your loved one's around when your finishing your PhD. A security, a sureity of having someone to fall back on when I go back home is Blissfull. I am luck and fortunate to have them here.. A certainity of no matter what they are with me..
Give me the strength and courage to sail through this last phase... that's all I want for in this diwali..because next diwali...I will have absolute answers to everything. Everybody finds it someday. So would I. This IS the year of uncertainities for me.. Be with me....I need you..
Thanks
The Scared Tanu
a foot towards the destined PhD end is also a step towards uncertainty, unknown! A step towards not knowing what next, not knowing where will the salary come from next, what would I do next !!
a foot towards saying a Hi and Bye together.......
a foot in my haunted land of 'I miss you' & 'I don't miss you'....
a foot towards searching job and finishing up as well...
a foot towards disappointed job interviews and persistent application and search...
Phew....help me toughen up...and remain in focus... few more months... and all this uncertainty will be over..
Came back from Mical defense, am shit scared imagining myself in her shoes in few months. I have to get it done with next couple of months. I have to just forget the uncertainity post PhD and just finish it. If I get a job, great IF Not am sure there is something for me in thought by the universe. I will not have the luxory that I have today with my parents around. Nothing like having your family and your loved one's around when your finishing your PhD. A security, a sureity of having someone to fall back on when I go back home is Blissfull. I am luck and fortunate to have them here.. A certainity of no matter what they are with me..
Give me the strength and courage to sail through this last phase... that's all I want for in this diwali..because next diwali...I will have absolute answers to everything. Everybody finds it someday. So would I. This IS the year of uncertainities for me.. Be with me....I need you..
Thanks
The Scared Tanu
2 comments:
You'll sail through just fine :-)
thanks Kashmira
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