First time

It was a beautiful day..nice sunny and bright. Spring was in the air, birds were chirping, flowers were budding, leaves were wanting to peek out..But there was a lull in Luna's life. The stillness engulfed her bright sunny morning.

She had just bye to Ryan after 10 years of there togetherness. It was never the perfect togetherness she had wanted or wished but she was happy with whatever she had till the happiness was too little to even notice. Life moved because it had to be moved. He was there but still never there. But she was scared. She was scared to walk by herself again. But she was any way always on her. She was scared to be lonely again.

She woke up that morning wanting to feel the sunrise, the sunset, the laughter, her smile, the breeze she used to hear 10 years back. She wanted to feel the rain, hear the river, walk on the grass, breath once again all for herself. Just for herself.

So she drove into the mountains, into the canyons. She walked to the river she met him. She stood there for a while trying to remember the last time she was there with him. She could not even remember where they held hands together for the first time. She kept walking next to the flowing river wanting to be the river. Wanting to flow, Wanting to go on the path she has never been. She sat at the corner smiling at the ripples and wondering what it would be to jump into it.. the water seemed warm, it won't hurt she thought. It's not cold anymore. The ice age just got over. She felt the sun burning her skin. She settled down under the tree at the corner counting the stones chucking into river for the memories she kept in her heart.

It was noon, time just flew by. She knew its going to happen today so she waited for the hour they had decided to meet. She had met him yesterday at Star bucks. It was 1:00 pm.

There you are he said. As he popped up from behind. She just smiled back. She looked at the eyes she did not know, she did not want to know. She had stopped reading them. He hugged her and held her hand. She just let him hold it. He joined her in chucking pebbles at the river.

They sat silent for sometime. Atleast that's what she felt. She could not hear anything that he was saying. She finished chucking her pebbles to the river and looked at him. He looked back. She stared into his eyes and kissed him. She walked out of love, once and for all. She was free again. She was breathing again. She heard the river. She felt the warmth of sunshine, she heard the birds chirping, she felt the breeze, she felt the rain, she felt everything but love!

She was over with it. She did what she never wanted to do ever. She felt no pain any more. She was smiling for herself. She was flowing with the river in the path she had never traveled before. She was on her own, she was not scared anymore, she did not want love anymore!