Gone With the Wind..

Yah, I think am finally 'DONE' with men and relationships. The more I think about it, the people I came across, my experiences may be I am not meant to be in it! May be I am not meant for it.

Yupp.

I just feel it. Now hang on for a minute -

Is this an after effect of meeting Mr. Perfect (or Mr. Pig) ? Or have I been in this stage since I met pre-Pig :) ? Or is all the men I met in my life were pigs?

Well I will take that back. Not really. The one I ended up in a relationship with were pigs :) Others were great friends. Why is there such a contrasting experience between them?

I don't know. I guess I will never know. But, sometimes I just wonder how to get over this mixed feeling of love and hate towards, Mr. Pig :) ?

Every time I remember our phone conversation the right side of my auricle beats harder. Immediately as a recovery measure I replay the 4 days date in my head. Soon the jingle of the bells from the right auricle is lost within the banging doors of the left auricle which sends signal to my pituitary to release more adrenaline in my blood. Eventually it reduces the heart rate within the right auricle and I can clearly hear my brain saying aloud - "IT WAS NOT MEANT TO BE FOR YOU"

Wonder which memory should I held on to ? 4 days or a month? They give different reactions and reasons to looks for pigs :) !

Anyway I guess for now I will play and replay the 4 days as often as I can so that I have no guilt left in hating Mr. Pig or making him non-existent! But it surprises me how a person who could be talking with care and affection be so rude and inconsistent!!

Ahha, my turn offs - inconsistent, show off, balding :) , bog teeth, grumpy face