Google Scholar or Spy ?

How would you feel, if I say there is a pair of eye always watching your back?

"SCARY " - isn't it ?

Specially if don't know their identity..or may be you know and you hate them staring at your back. The eyes, that you hate for lurking from behind...

The other day I got an email from google blogger... 'ENJOY blogging' and sharing ...giving me the people who have blog rolled me or tagged me... !!! I came across some old and new names... it was kinda scary...if I did not know them.. i guess I would not have really bothered. But the scary part is I knew and know some of them. And the realization that somebody is watching you silently sent a cold wave through my spine, specially when they do not have the balls to communicate directly !! BASTARDS !!!

Anyway ... I do not like the idea of people lurking from behind. face it. Come up front. I have been little bothered ever since I received that email. Not sure if 'Google' is the real scholar or spy!!

And to add to my worries I shared this link with someone whom I met ... and I liked after spending such long years..on the matrimony sites... Well I do not regret sharing the link ... but I do feel uncomfortable when someone knows more about me than I know about them... I have problems when people are not honest about what they feel and think, and are not straight forward in their opinion or thoughts. CREEPS!!!

Not that I am the most wanted personality and people are dying to find out about me and my blog... but the intensive animosity or harshness experienced through this blog world in the past made me realize so many things.. about life in general that I thought thats its better to maintain my space... I anyway write just for myself. For breathing so why to let others have access to it. I guess I am drawing boundaries that I never had... :) i guess its time that I realize that ... I enjoy writing and talking to myself.. my space :)

Someday I know all these words will make sense, but for now they need to be stored in my pandora box. I mean I write for myself. Its my space. My trusted opinion. The Me. And no one but me, has to or needs to know about me.

So this is Me and Only ME :) ..............., the lesser known part of 'Me' - peace :)